If the words no longer know what to do, the body can speak most clearly. György Jellinek at “MV dances”.
Photo: MV dances
He gets small, winds, crouches together, pulls the arms and legs in, as if he wanted to hide, remain invisible, find refuge. But where? György Jellinek climbs up the wall, falls to the ground. On his blue T-shirt there is a large sheet of paper on the back. Publicly branded by the word “fagot”.
What it can mean to be gay impressively expresses Jellinek as a dancer on stage. His stage are classrooms in various schools in Mecklenburg-Western Pomerania, Brandenburg and Schleswig-Holstein.
It is already the sixth classroom dance piece with which the Companie Perform (D) Ance is under the motto “MV dancing”. The piece is intended for students from the ninth grade of all school types. “The children and young people hardly come to the theater,” said the choreographer of the piece, Stefan Hahn. “That is why we go to the schools to make current, socially critical topics sound by dance.” The challenge of the play “Who on I?” It was not to overwhelm young people to meet them, to take them seriously, says Hahn. “It was an attempt to find a connection between the explicit reality and the metaphorical representation, so that the statement remains conveyable.”
A satchel, a school desk, a chair. These are the props in the room. The protagonist still lying on the ground is straightened up. A between the wall, chair and the bench forces itself. Narrower and narrower. Trapped in itself. It appears helpless, desperate. Seems denounced and torn inside. The dancer throws everything around with all force. The school furniture is flying through the air. A fight against hostility, against exclusion, against violence.
“For a long time, I didn’t let my sexuality different,” recalls György Jellinek. “I refused, even hated. I suppressed everything that had to do with gender affiliation. «The boy is bullied at school. “It was a difficult time. It was said that I wasn’t a typical man-boy. ”Jellinek tries to explain the behavior of his classmates at the time. Later the search for a self -determined, free life leads him into a deep identity crisis.
György Jellinek was born in Budapest, grows up with two sisters. The parents are both crane. The mother smokes strongly, the father drinks and depends on tablets. “We children were quiet so as not to cause any problems.” At the same time, things are happily going in the family. “Our home often appeared to me like a ballroom, which took a little bit.” The parents are dancers in the Budapest Burlesken Theater scene. The mother recognizes the boy’s talent. She presents the then twelve -year -old at a casting of the Budapest Ballet Academy.
György laughs, gestured with the delicate hands. A small ring adorns his left ear. “Until then, I didn’t want to dance. But when new large windows were used in our ballet hall, I observed how a strong wind moved the branches of the tree top outside. That was a beautiful picture. ”His big eyes shine with enthusiasm. “At that moment I understood what dance can mean. Embody a tree. Its roots, ramifications, this striving for light and at the same time firmly on the ground. «
One day the parents separate. The father dies very early. The roles are now being swapped unconsciously. From then on, the son will feel responsible for the mother and take the position of the father and husband.
“Due to my story, through the dance I can bring something good into the world.”
George Jelline
“The dance gave me structure. I was already employed as a stage dancer at the Hungarian State Ballet and earned well. I believed that when I was more and more on stage, I can take care of my mother and the sisters. ”Saving other people, the basic motive is of his existence, the son believes for a long time. He not only takes care of the mother, but also his sister with his cancer. »I had no access to my own feelings and sensations. Since my childhood I always thought that something bad would happen through me. Even today, when I walk along the streets, I look at the floor so as not to step on an insect. ”He knows today that it is not in his power to heal the sister’s tumor and the life of the mother or even save other people. “But through my story, through the dance I can bring something good into the world.”
The curtain opens. György Jellinek steps on the stage again. Now he wears a black mesh shirt, this time number 37 attached on his back. In mysticism, an angelic number that leads the recipient on the right path over a larger power, it is said.
The smooth body moves subtly. Impressively and touchingly the fragility, expresses longing and desire. The dancer is playing playfully to the ground, straightens up: graceful, centered. Opens the arms dignified. Revolves around your own axis. The pirouettes become faster and faster than the figure wants to experience itself in all beauty and dancing elegance. In search of his identity, Jellinek repeatedly faces the existential basic questions of life. “Who am I? What am I here for? What is my way and am I still on the right track? “
Loud tangle of voices in the room. Roar. Tramp. Shouting. A relentless rhythm that destroys any order. The musically accompanying dramaturgy of the play also great. The turmoil of the masses is getting louder, more aggressive, more threatening. How can a person resist in the middle of anger, hatred and hostility?
Jellinek fights determined. Throws the pour behind it. The things out of the backpack, he throws everything old away from himself, in all directions. Delay everything poison. Put the backpack over his head. Smoke rises. The breath is rushed. Sweat runs out of all pores. “This is not a role -playing game. That comes out deep from the inside. Brachial, without form-from a time when I had completely lost myself, «recalls the currently 35-year-old man.
He is 19 when he fell in love with a colleague at the theater. He is his first friend. “I was irritated, unsettled, undecided. I trembled and cried because I had a difficult way in mind. ”Hungary is a very conservative country when it comes to homosexuality. Viktor Orbán’s government has been causing a stir with a homo- and transgender policy for years. “I knew I would lose everything in my life so far. With my dance career it would be over. Would I disappoint my mother, siblings and friends? How could I have supported my family? ”He asks himself. After all, love is stronger than all concerns. “I felt this treasure in my heart. That gave me strength and courage to come out. “
The dance production “Who am I?” Illustrates, “like lust and frustration, anger and courage, such as the body, thoughts and feelings, to constraints, prejudices and norms,” says Stefan Hahn. It not only affects sexual preference, but generally what is being exposed.
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Almost 400 performances of the classroom pieces were already on the timetable. The productions took place at festivals, in theaters and in public spaces. “The response of our classroom dance pieces is extremely positive in schools,” says Hahn. “We are close to the reality of life of young people. Even if something distances at the beginning, the young people seriously deal with the existential lifestyle. What should a man look like? Why still irritate different sexual orientations of other people? “Jellinek asks:” What is normal? And who is normal? If you are not accepted in society, then you believe that you are unhealthy and not wanted. “
Jellinek now lives in Berlin, dances at the German Opera and in Free Compania. He modestly explains: »The applause does not mean something to me, but the content of the piece, the message. The acceptance is my body, that’s my truth. “
The last scene: in the end there is surprisingly a rose in the backpack. The dancer gently spreads her over his face, puts her carefully on the eyes, cheeks, on the mouth. With her, tender head and neck, the whole body, until he finally leads her to his heart. A moment of silence. “Is it the precious rose of the little prince? The secret? The essentials are invisible to the eyes? Jellinek throws the red petals into the vast space. «There is no difference between us. How can it work to deal with each other peacefully? How can I say to my life and live to other people? We have all longing for love and human freedom. »
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